Sober Thoughts

When I was young, I started smoking weed. My uncle had just died and I knew there was a void in me that I wanted to escape. I began abusing marijuana as a means to cope with my life. It wasn't until early summer of 2017 that I stopped smoking willingly because I felt like I was doing something wrong. Fast forward to the present time. I realized recently that weed/smoking weed was and is not bad in itself but abusing such gifts is what led to my guilt. If I used weed in a healthy way, I could potentially unlock a new world of knowledge, learning, and education. Being that I held my label as "sober" so highly for 2 years, I was fearful to go near the substance again. Thankfully, I was invited to have a personal retreat where I had access to our dear little friend Ms. Mary Jane. She has opened my eyes to a life I did not know existed. Through meditation, research, reading, and writing, I have learned more in the last few days than I have in my entire life. I struggled fo